Yesterday, I had the opportunity to enter the Endless Tower (ET) thanks to the streamer I have been consistently watching for six months. Since ABS CBN’s shutdown, despite having cable tv and Netflix, entertainment on the boob tube has been doomed. Streamers have been rampant on Facebook and good thing this particular streamer really put a lot of effort and thought on his daily content.
What is Endless Tower? If you’re familiar with Hunter x Hunter’s Heaven’s Arena, it’s pretty much the same thing. In Solace Ragnarok, Endless tower contains 100 levels of monsters that, as a party, you have to defeat successively. The loots are already rewarding but the higher you go, the tougher it gets. If I remember correctly there are boss monsters every 10 / 15 levels but each map is already a tough nut to crack to begin with.
So me and my husband along with the fellow viewers who are actually friends with the streamer, went there and we reached up to the 65th floor. The only party who has reached the top level is a Korean guild who is somewhat in hot water because Filipinos are experts in crab mentality. Anyways…
After that fun trip to ET, I realized why I dread after shift hangouts, clingy colleagues and unnecessary meetings. I’M NOT A TEAM PLAYER and that is one trait any recruiter wouldn’t want to waste time on. It’s ironic how people see me as a great host yet know for a fact that I’m not fun at parties.
The streamer’s wife happens to be a very, very, very close friend of mine in college. So close we have pictures in Tronix (hehe) I still keep up to now. So close we exchanged some very personal stuff way back, way personal than what people call “of sentimental value”. But after “life” happened, we just grew apart, we just talk about the game and that’s practically it. I’m still dumbfounded how having kids cause people to unintentionally alienate “non-parents” in their crowd.
So in today’s generation, there’s the Gen Z which were mistakenly identified as millenials, the actual millenials who are parents now, and my bracket – the childless ones. The people whom were thought to have no responsibility but have time and/or money to spare. Those who were told “buti ka pa / swerte mo nga wala ka pang anak” like we don’t have real concerns that bring us tremendous anxiety. Of course, for the most part, we have been silent. While majority of our network are having kids, we stand alone because the said majority cannot relate.
Just know that you are not alone on the childless, “carefree” lifestyle. Decisions were made and we chose the detour. Some are busy chasing their dreams, some are busy fulfilling other people’s dreams, and some, just like me, choose to be at peace. And it’s hard to find peace when you can’t even get a decent good night sleep.